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indexthejester · 3 days ago
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01: meh I think. Getting better I suppose.
02: My friend, we say it when ending calls
03: far too much. Sometimes it hits me like a bullet to the chest. Feels like the metal ball in my brain pinballs into a bumper that gives negative points.
04: no definitely not <- she lied
05: single and looking for friends which may turn into queerplatonic relations. Not that I'm crossing my fingers.
06: slowly and calmly enough to analyze the way it feels to die, but not too peacefully that it's otherwise uninteresting.
07: Zaxby's chicken strips
08: tried a few. Not my thing. Except tennis, I liked that one. Not sure if snowboarding counts but I like that too.
09: Yes I do it sucks.
10: never had one, unless wrestling counts
11: I like many people. I love them too. I suppose I have a crush on people that I relate too, especially if I find them interesting. I want to know every part of them intimately. To drink it all in.
12: yes
13: I don't think so, I try not to. I don't think it's very useful for solving my or the world's problems, and it makes me feel pretty miserable in the process.
14: probably somewhat, I'm pretty lonely most of the time so yeah almost always. I work and live better when I'm with someone I like. Whether talking or just present in the same "space".
15: 2 family dogs, one day I'll move out and get a cat probably. Cats are great.
16: chill, minus the usual slight heartburn. Just got our of the shower and am lying in bed, getting messages from a new friend, living well.
17: no, very out of left field question
18: not really. I find them interesting though. They either look like insects or weirdly mammalian despite being neither. Weird that scorpions are more closely related.
19: nah there's nothing for me back there.
20: god I wish
21: talk to a friend and life planning
22: no, I mean I'm good with them and it's very fulfilling I just find it stressful. Right now I have so much I want to do I can't see myself adopting and settling down but maybe idk.
23: 2 for earrings
24: Math and English I suppose. Programming too if college counts
25: Maybe. Not at the moment. In recent past, it was fun to hang out at the lgbtq center in college. Sucks that I'm stuck at home now.
26: more social interaction. I may be anxious about how I reply or generally talk through textual messaging, but it makes me feel all comfy inside :3 also sleep because it is 2:36am for me rn.
27: idk
28: no
29: never had one
30: eye strain and heart burn and social anxiety.
31: I think so. I don't think it's for me to say, I try to love myself at least, though it's really hard.
32: magenta, or some other combo of purple and red. Hence the Melantha pfp. Also she's autistic.
33: yes, very much so
34: can't remember. The last one I remember was very sexual which is unusual for me.
35: cried on a call with a friend of mine I think. Just scared of the state the world's in.
36: I don't know, I don't know if I've had to
37: depends on the person I guess. Sometimes you can't do either. Just gotta learn to live with what happened.
38: So far absolutely not. But in the past 4 days I've had a lot of fun being alive. It is fun to make new friends and connect with people and have fun.
39: excluding my parents it hasn't happened
40: yes
51: chicken alphredo and chicken cordon bleu
52: I don't believe in fate, but I do believe in causality, to an extent.
53: brush my teeth I think. Maybe watch a youtube video or masterbate, though I usually do the latter as I'm falling asleep so I'm not sure if it counts.
54: I'm sure you could invent some crazy scenario where it is, but in general I think betraying your partner's trust is just about the worst thing you can do in a relationship.
55: I try not to be.
56: 0
57: when I am vulnerable and comfortable, I am filled to bursting with love for the world and everything in it. So if "true" means "pure unfiltered" then maybe yeah. Me x The Universe. Me x All My Friends.
58: bright but not too bright, grey skies, no visavle sun, chill in the air. Can move around without sweating buckets.
59: YYYYYYYEEEEEEEEESSSSSSS
60: very much so someday. Already planning it out.
61: never had it happen to me though it seems pretty boring standard. Call me your owner, handler, mad scientist, something interesting.
62: a loving community and the ability to freely create art
63: yeah obviously
64: yeah I'm too old for that it's weird
65: what are we role-playing now? I don't know, depends on the context. (Treating "sex" as "gender" for these questions btw.)
66: no, I don't. I wouldn't call any of my friends men.
67: My father but I honestly wonder if he's not a little trans
68: like a really deep conversation? Uhh definitely @thatweirdyellowrat. Haven't felt that much mental clarity after a conversation in a long time. I would not be as happy or geared to make new friends if not for that.
69: Fuck no.
70: I think so yeah, more than one actually. Which is saying something because I value my life a lot.
70 horrible questions ... Fuck it
01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?
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linoxpudding · 3 days ago
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Not A Date - Lee Know
summary: a valentine’s hangout turns accidentally romantic when SKZ meddles—forcing you and minho to rethink your friendship
pairing: lee know x reader, skz squad
genre: fluff, humor
fic type: written + text
a/n: wrote this on a rush, I just got this cute request few hours ago but I really wanted to upload this on valentines day bc of the theme, happy valentines day my cuties 💜
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7th February, 7:15 pm:
It all started with a simple hangout plan between you and your friend, Minho.
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12th February, 5:25 pm at SKZ Dorm:
The dorm was unusually loud, which was never a good sign. Minho sat on the couch, scrolling through his phone while eating chips. Hyunjin plopped down beside him, stretching dramatically.
"Yo, you doing anything for Valentine’s?" Hyunjin asked, eyes still glued to the TV.
"What?" Minho asked, not even looking at him.
"This Friday? Got any plans?" Hyunjin asked again.
Minho barely looked up. "Yeah, I’m going somewhere with Y/N."
Silence.
Hyunjin blinked. "Wait. What?"
Minho raised an eyebrow. "What?"
"You're spending Valentine’s with Y/N?"
"Not Valentine's, just a Friday hangout? Why are you being weird?"
Hyunjin’s jaw dropped. "LEE FELIX! HAN JISUNG! COME HERE RIGHT NOW."
Within seconds, the entire dorm was in chaos.
Then the news travelled to the rest of the members who were in the studio.
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The realisation between you both.
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The endless teasings of your friends.
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14th February, 11 am the morning of "Non-Date":
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14th February, 2:50 pm at the "Non-Date":
Somehow, neither of you could manage to stop the chaos. Now, you stood outside the cat café, staring at Minho, who was—against his will—dressed suspiciously well.
“…Did they force you to dress up?” you asked, eyeing his button-up.
Minho sighed. "Chan hyung literally ironed this shirt himself. I had no choice."
You laughed, taking in the scene. There were people everywhere—couples holding hands, roses being exchanged, soft music playing from the café speakers. It was undeniably romantic.
"You do realize this actually looks like a date now, right?" you said, crossing your arms.
Minho rolled his eyes. "Thanks to those idiots, yes."
You both walked inside, greeted by the warm scent of coffee and the sight of fluffy cats lounging around. The moment you sat down, a waiter came over with a knowing smile.
"Happy Valentine’s! Your special couple’s drinks are on the house."
You choked. "Sorry, we're not—"
"We’ll take it," Minho interrupted.
You turned to him, scandalized. "Minho!"
He shrugged. "What? Free drinks."
The rest of the afternoon was surprisingly… nice. The cats were adorable, the drinks were actually good, and after the initial awkwardness faded, it felt like your usual hangouts.
But something was different.
It wasn’t the setting or the day itself—it was the way he kept stealing glances at you when he thought you weren’t looking, but you could feel his eyes on you. Or the way you noticed how soft his voice got when he spoke to you. Your heart fluttered in those miniscule moments.
Soon it was time to leave, you both exited the cafe and began walking.
The night air was crisp, just cold enough for you to pull your jacket tighter around yourself as you walked side by side with him.
Minho was quiet, but not in an awkward way—just comfortable. The kind of silence that didn’t need to be filled. The only sounds were the soft rhythm of your footsteps against the pavement and the distant hum of city life around you.
Your hands brushed.
Barely, just for a second. A whisper of warmth against the cool air.
You ignored the way your breath hitched.
It happened again. A fleeting touch, his fingers grazing against yours before pulling away.
You peeked up at him. He was looking straight ahead, jaw relaxed, expression unreadable—except for the way the corner of his lips twitched. Like he knew but wasn’t saying anything.
You swallowed, suddenly hyperaware of the space between the two of you.
Minho tilted his head slightly, his voice low. “Cold?���
You shook your head, a little too quickly. “Nope.”
He hummed, unconvinced, taking your hand gently and intertwining, then shoving your hands into his pockets. “Hmm. Could’ve fooled me.”
You bit back a smile, glancing away. Heart racing.
The streetlights cast a soft glow over his face, highlighting the sharp line of his jaw, the curve of his nose, the quiet amusement dancing in his eyes.
He looked… good.
Too good.
Dangerously good.
You exhaled, trying to shake the thought away. This wasn’t a date.
…Right?
As if reading your mind, Minho’s voice cut through the quiet. “So,” he mused, “are you gonna admit it yet?”
You blinked up at him. “Admit what?”
“That you had fun,” he said simply, turning to meet your gaze. “That maybe this wasn’t the worst way to spend Valentine’s.”
You scoffed, “maybe.”
He stopped walking for a second, just enough for you to nervously take your hands out of his pocket and take a step ahead before he caught up again.
Then, quietly, he murmured, “Maybe I should take you out again.”
Your breath hitched, but before you could respond, he nudged your shoulder lightly, the teasing glint back in his eyes. “You know. Accidentally.”
You rolled your eyes, but couldn’t stop the tiny smile tugging at your lips.
Minho noticed.
He definitely noticed.
But he didn’t say anything—just smirked to himself, eyes flickering forward as you two kept walking.
Hands brushing. Shy smiles lingering.
And somewhere in the back of your mind, a tiny, traitorous thought whispered:
This felt a lot like the beginning of something.
Later that night....
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The SKZ Family
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the end.
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leighsartworks216 · 2 days ago
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could I request it being the first time ur in a relationship for valentine's and youre not sure how to make it special for sylus because you've never celebrated before ? :)
My First Valentine
Sylus x gn!Reader
I wrote most of this today even tho the request came in a week ago 💀 sorry
Warnings: fluff, anxiety, nervousness, embarrassment, kissing, gift giving, flowers, Valentine's Day, insecurity, declarations of love, established relationship, pet names, reader is implied as being shorter/smaller than Sylus
Word Count: 1,922
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'45 Fun And Romantic Valentine's Day Date Ideas!' '13 Fun Valentine's Day Activities!' '25+ Romantic Things To Do This Valentine's Day!'
You sigh, closing yet another tab of holiday ideas. You don't know how many websites you've looked at now, all of them promising fantastic gifts or experiences, sure to sweep your partner off their feet. But none of them felt good enough. Not for Sylus.
All your life, Valentine's Day was another lonely day. Your friends and their partners would be out and about or getting together at home, and you'd be stuck in pjs, eating ice cream and watching the same cheesy rom-coms as the year before. The most you'd ever gotten out of the day was in school, when you'd get those little themed cards with a heart-shaped lollipop poked through them.
Now that you have a partner, every single thing you come across feels too cheesy, or like something he wouldn't be into. Not to mention, anything you could possibly buy, he could get on his own with his gobs of money.
Go on a trip? He owns his own private jet; he could go anywhere anytime.
Buy him flowers? More likely than not, they'd wilt twice as fast in the darkness of the N109 Zone.
Dinner at a restaurant means you'd have to find some really fancy place to suit his tastes to make sure he has a nice time. Cooking something yourself could hardly compare to his professional private chef's cooking.
You could get him some vinyls, but you'd hate to get him a duplicate. Weapons? Well, he's got that covered; he deals them.
Asking Luke and Kieran is a non-starter when they're equally as likely to give you good advice as fake advice that would make you look foolish.
You can't fathom how your friends make it look so easy to make plans for the day and get gifts for their partners. Though, you suppose, none of them are dating a multi-billionaire (if not multi-trillionaire or more) crime boss.
You sigh and close your laptop with a snap. What does Sylus enjoy that you can treat him to as a special holiday treat? Something you can feasibly accomplish before the actual day rolls around? Something other than a cheap visit to the arcade or the cat cafe...
Wait... Actually...
Sylus knows you live in rather modest means. He always insists you pay with his black card so you're not stressing about going broke. Why would he suddenly expect you to dish out wads of cash now on a trip or gift? Anything you give him - even if it's a cheap toy from the dollar store - he'd cherish like a gem.
And that's when the idea forms.
With all the preparations written down, you text him, bubbling with energy.
Syyyy
You seem rather playful all of a sudden. What's got you excited, kitten?
You can tell all that from one word??
No, I can tell all that because I know you
Awe 🥺 stop being so cute
Anyway!! I actually wanted to tell you that I have Valentine's Day all worked out!
Oh?
But it's a secret!
Well now I'm interested. What do I need to do for these plans of yours?
Just show up at my place at nightfall on the day of :3
That's it? Why do I feel like I'm being lured into a trap?
Oh yeah the worst trap of all a doting partner who wants to pour all their love on you
Alright. I'll see you then, kitten
But don't think I'll be showing up empty handed
I'd be concerned if you did ngl
Ily <3333333 Goodnighttt
Goodnight, sweetie. I love you too
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For how simple your plan is - or perhaps because of how simple your plan is - you've never been more nervous in your life. You've double and triple checked everything, made sure he'll be comfortable and not too disappointed with what you've come up with, and second-guessed yourself several times about whether this is actually a good idea.
Not that it matters. You'd be really down to the wire to come up with something new now.
You pace the living room, wringing your hands together, chewing your lip, fussing with your hair. You feel like a dog excited to see its owner when you hear a patterned knock on the door. So excited you nearly trip over the corner of a blanket in your haste to answer it.
Sylus is there to greet you, an easy grin on his face and softened eyes. A large bouquet that you'd drown in rests deceptively small in the crook of his arm. A bag hangs from his other hand, but he sets it down when you step into the hall to hug him.
He chuckles fondly, squeezing you tightly to him and kissing your head. "You look cozy," he teases playfully. His fingers tug at the back of your pajamas.
You laugh nervously as you step back. "Ah, yeah. It's part of the stuff I planned, actually."
He quirks an eyebrow. "I'm a bit overdressed."
"Don't worry! I got you some!" Your face grows hot. You feel like an idiot, flustered and inexperienced. "Come in, so I can explain better."
You take the bouquet from his arm. It's full of your favorite flowers, their delightful aroma tickling your nose as you carry them into the kitchen to look for a vase. You have to rely on your muscle memory to move around; they completely block your vision. Sylus follows in after you with his bag, peering around the little space of your apartment. He'd offered to get you a bigger one, once. Somewhere with a view, soundproof walls, and all the upgraded appliances you ogled in the stores. But you refused, and he respected that, even if it meant being inconvenienced by the lack of space for someone of his size.
His eyes land on the couch, covered in blankets of all sizes. Various DVDs cover the coffee table alongside a neatly folded pair of pajamas. It's cluttered, but purposefully so, as if the mess has been built into the experience.
You find a vase (bought after the first time he bought you flowers that you had to divvy up between various drinking cups) and settle the bouquet on the small dining table. There's no room left for two people to eat there. You come back out looking a mite more disheveled than before.
You smile awkwardly up at him, eyes flickering from his face to your setup as you rock back and forth on your feet. "So! Um, I've never actually had a partner to celebrate Valentine's Day with before, so I used to get a bunch of ice cream, maybe some takeout, and I'd just spend the night on the couch with a bunch of cheesy rom-coms. And now we're together and I didn't know what I could do because you can have anything you want at any given moment. But, um, I just thought, for my first Valentine's Day with someone, I could... share my 'tradition' with you." You exhale a shaky breath. "I know it's probably not what you were expecting..."
"Sweetie," he gently interrupts your rambling. He sets the bag on the couch, then closes the space between you, holding your face in both his hands, urging you to meet his eyes. They shine with something warm and sweet, like cherry wine. "It's not what I was expecting, but it's better than anything I could have imagined."
You scoff. "You're just saying that."
He shakes his head. "I can't buy a tradition, sweetie. This is something that means a lot to you. I'm fortunate enough to be the one person who gets to share it with you; no amount of money could do that."
Your heart feels light. It floats around your chest like a balloon filled with helium. Butterflies flutter in your stomach to join in on the fun. Is this how your friends felt with their partners? It's addicting. You try to blink away the incoming tears before they can form.
"What did you bring?" you ask suddenly, redirecting the conversation away so you can have a chance to gather yourself.
Fortunately, he lets you have it. With a knowing smirk, he kisses your forehead and steps away back to the couch. You miss the proximity immediately.
He pulls out each item one by one, holding it up to show you. "Wine. I can't say anything about how it'll taste, but the label was pretty, so I thought you'd like it." He sets it on the coffee table.
"You mentioned that you liked to go to the store the day after to buy the discounted candy. Well, it wasn't discounted, but I grabbed a variety." Those remain in the bag, but he has to shift it all around to reach something at the bottom.
He seems the most proud of - and the most nervous for - this one. He glances over at you before he pulls it out, as though double checking he has your attention. From the bag comes a hoodie, that he holds by the shoulders to let it unfold. It's nothing too special to look at, but the size is what strikes you. When he holds it up, it's clearly the perfect size for him. His ears tinge pink as he holds it out for you.
"You complained once that I don't have any hoodies for you to steal, like other couples do," he reminds you, voice soft and vulnerable.
He watches carefully as you step forward and reach out to feel the material. It's soft. So soft. You take it into your arms. The familiar scent of Sylus wafts up from the fabric; his body wash, his cologne, him. You hold it up to your nose to smell it better as you look up at him in awe.
"I wore it for a couple days," he admits. "If you don't like it, I can-"
"I love it." You really are going to cry now. You step forward, clinging the hoodie to your chest as he wraps his arms around you. "Sy, this means so much to me. I'm never gonna be able to take it off."
He chuckles. His arms squeeze you just a bit tighter, pull you a bit closer. "I'm glad. You're my first Valentine, too."
You pull back enough to look up at him. Your eyes are glassy, surprise to earnest on your face. "Wha- Really?"
"You sound surprised."
"Well, I mean, I just- You're so... you. That's a compliment, by the way."
"I was waiting for the right partner," he says with a huff of laughter. He dips his head down, soft lips capturing yours in a meaningful kiss. When he speaks again, it's in soft murmurs between kisses. "I'll go change... into the pajamas you got me... and then... we can watch... your movies."
The butterflies are back in full force. Each kiss has them flittering about, doing swoops and swirls in your stomach, wings tickling your insides. "Okay... Mm, but, stay here a bit longer..."
He smiles against your lips, hands sliding up your body to hold your face as he tilts his head, yearning to taste more of you, feel more of you. "Love you, sweetheart..."
You blindly set the hoodie on the arm of the couch to hold his fancy shirt in both hands, drawing him closer, knuckles brushing against the defined muscle beneath the fabric. "I love you, Sylus... Mm, so much... so much..."
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scrumptiousstuffs · 2 days ago
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Hey anon here
I know I will be sounding very stupid here and as much as I love being a delulu fan but I know how the bl industry works and as for a fact the entire entertainment Business for that matter, it's about engagement and fan services, I saw almost all the couples of gmmtv put stories about their dates and how they celebrated their valantine with each other but then realistically speaking I know for a fact most of it was fan service coz no way each cp in a company is dating each other so what's your take on this whole thing, also I'm not saying they are faking it or something like if some of them are dating then that's really good but all of them it's hard to believe
Also I'm a firstkhao fan and well as much as I wanted them to post something just to feed my delulu but then they didn't and that's so them and how many chances do you think of them dating two different people is true as I saw on fan speaking about it and I know it was for fun but then why not it's their Life after all and we are just fans who live them together
Hi anon.
So, I’m not going to say I know much about how CPs and the entertainment business work.
However, I think you are right in saying that most official CPs (and even some who are not - like Kapook and Ciize!! 😉) put up some sort of photoshoots or coupl-y type of activities (either going for dinner/sunset dates or making reels of giving each other beautiful bouquet of flower etc.) are doing a level of fanservice - be it for the fans to squeal over, promoting their upcoming series or to attract engagement to better their work prospects.
But I also feel most of these CPs are genuine friends in real-life and for them, doing these sorts of activities are fun for them. After all, you get to hang out with a close friend whom you cherish, even if you have to put up a photo (or 2) +/- video reels on your social media as an “obligatory post.”
What I do feel somehow sad for the CPs are when fans (+ media outlets) keep asking insistently “what are your plans with so and so?” - I’m pretty sure JoongDunk got asked multiple times these questions leading up to Valentine’s Day. And then asked again during their recent work event on 14/02/25 - what their Valentine’s dinner plan is? What gifts did the boys buy each other? How do you guys show each other your love? (Or something to that effect) - cause I saw Dunk (to his credit he was very professional), answering that Joong’s way to show love is by physical affection while he showed his by cooking/baking with Joong always the first one to taste his food.
Maybe I’m in the minority, but my personal opinion - if the CPs want to tell us, they can do so without anyone else badgering them about it through their social media posts at their own time and choosing.
As for FirstKhaotung (they are also my OTP 😂anon!!!)…I admit I was puzzled when the fans are disappointed about the lack of “Valentine updates” from them.
Firstly, both boys wished the fans “Happy Valentine’s Day” on Twitter (even if First was trolling us with a picture of P’Tha in the middle of him and Khaotung 🤣)
Secondly, both boys posted IG updates of them wishing the other Valentine’s Day with song choices that I could only interpret as love confession to each other… 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️
Thirdly, are we all that surprised the boys don’t put up videos/pictures of them giving each other flowers/chocolates? (Or doing couple photoshoots?) - I get the feeling they are just happily nesting in Khaotung’s brand new house with 3 fur babies around them while playing video games after perhaps brunch/lunch + shopping together (cause let’s be honest, that will be their version of a perfect Valentine’s Day).
So , Iike you anon - I am not surprised by the minimal Valentine posts/photos from them (in fact, I was pleasantly shocked the IG posts from them happened at all - which led me into more delulu land hahah)
As for them actually dating another person 🤷🏽‍♀️…who knows. If/when it happens, I’ll cheer them on. However, all I know is that whoever is dating First/Khaotung, will actually be dating them as a set rather than one person 😂. My head canon is that F/K going on a date with someone, and the bestie who is NOT on that date will just tag along anyway 🤸 …
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filmofhybe · 7 hours ago
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𝐏𝐀𝐋𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄 ♡
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plot: when enhypen ask you to be their palentine but by the end of your "little date", you both left as each other's valentine ᥫ᭡
Genre: ot7 x reader, friend to lovers, built up relationships
warnings : profanity lowk, slight age gap (the hyung line)
a/n : I haven't done a ot7 in ages..?? NE ways this is a Valentine's Day special!! Hope you all had a good Valentine's (with your s/o, friends or just yourself!) my bf made me brownies, brought me flowers and a teddy! It was so cute, however hope this fill some of your delusions this month!
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정원 jungwon ♡
You both met at college open day and since than you guys are locked in throughout your whole college life.
BUT THATS OKAY! You got each other!
So when Valentine's Day arrive, both of your friends back in high school (somehow) found a s/o already so it was just kind of you two. Alone.
Well things started to get a little more than just friends between you two about 2 months ago. But that's another story!
So jungwon suggested you guys should do a "palentine's" because apparently it's trending and you guys are friends. I mean friends can do valentines together right? there's no restrictions.
So you said yes because no.1 you're fucking lonely, no.2 you liked jungwon.
You went to this mini cafe which was filled with couples and somehow have a couple discount that day.
And being a broke college student you both are, you decided to act it out just to get the goddamn 25% discount, and they actually believed it. (Gullible)
Your waitress even said how cute you both were and he is such a gentleman for buying you a lovely bouquet of (your favorite) flowers.
Jungwon said so much sweet yet cringy things that day such as "you're so beautiful" "I wish I can kiss you right now" "can't wait to marry you"
Dude ain't even tryna hide it anymore
Walked out of the cafe hand in hand and boom he confessed his lil crush on you. It was kinda obvious tho I must say but guess what you started your day with a palentine and by the end you got a valentine wrapped his arms around you!
not so lonely I must say!
희 승 heeseung ♡
Oh boy idek how to start this man
HE'S SO COLLEAGUE VIBE I CANT STAND IT
so he is kinda your only and only friend at your division in the company
All because the others are literally twice or third times your age and he's only 4 years older is not that bad
Your company is hosting a "Valentine's day get together" at a hotel where you get to bring in your s/o with you but you being a bit lonely you told Heeseung you are not going.
"We can go as palentine's?"
Pause going to a company get together as palentine's? Not bad at all but with THE HEESEUNG that all the aunties and girls drool over in each and every division. They gonna start tweaking out.
Well that doesn't stop you cuz you knew he chose you for a reason, you weren't born yesterday
So you put on a fancy and elegant outfit for this occasion (secretly just for Heeseung) and sprayed your expensive fragrance that you cherish so much
You didn't expect him to get you flowers but hey a win is a win!
Eyes were all on you both when you walked in some girls sigh feeling sad that Heeseung got such a beautiful girl beside him
The dinner was alright questions was thrown towards you both and you knew is going to spread across the whole company by Monday
You guys left a bit early cuz heeseung had a surprise for you EEEEE🤭🤭
He took you to his car and bro..
His Mercedes was wrapped in (your favorite color), balloons saying "will you be my valentine", an expensive gift on the bonnet of his car and rose pedals on to as well!!
He took this SERIOUSLY!
"You're fucking my head right now." That's all you could get out of your head
He just chuckled and pulled you into his arms. Aww how sweet of him.
you opened the gift in the car and all he can think of was how lucky he can be to be with someone this beautiful and sweet.
박종성 Park Jeongseong ♡
icl there's no palentine here you guys have just been each others Valentine since kids
well until he moved away and become a massive rockstar
You both kinda miss being together during valentines because it was YOUR day together
It wasn't like you guys don't talk to each other anymore because you both always runs to each other wheneved you feel down, it was just distanced
Obviously being kilometers away from each other isn't the best
Well not this year! He's going on tour at both of your hometown and him being PARK JEONGSEONG. He invited your family and his to watch.
So you put on your best concert fit that you and your sister had put up a fight for on whose gonna wear it
But she insists you do cuz (she knows you're secret massive crush on Jay)
the concert was 10/10
Sang wonderwall by oasis dedicated to you cuz he KNEW you showed up!!
Him and your parents was in awww
so after the concert you ran to find him
Turns out he was going to surprise you with a valentine gift cuz he misses you so much and loves you
"I missed you so much my beautiful.. happy Valentine's Day.."his head buried into your neck, inhaling your scent that never changed and just enjoying your presence
"I missed you more my superstar.. happy Valentine's Day."
Kicking my feet.
심재윤 Sim Jaeyun ♡
He is so cringe
He's your neighbor so no surprise that he tries to get your dogs to play with Layla when he first saw you got dogs
You obviously agreed cuz he was cute and asked politely
Overtime it has just became a tradition and so your friendship develops
Dog walks together from time to time, dog-sitting each others dogs when the other is out of town (you get the drill)
Too fucking dumb to realize that you both kinda have feelings for each other
When Valentine's Day comes, he suggested that you both should have a "palentine" with your dogs
So it happened, you both went for typical fast food lunch and you made homemade puppuccino for the dogs
Clearly the dog was having a blast because they fell asleep on the sofa when you and Jake was watching "how to lose a guy in 10 days."
The distance between the both of you, the blanket, the legs curled together is way more than just friends and you both know it
At the point you both are sick of hiding it and Jake went for the BOLDEST MOVE
he wrapped his arms around you and just pulled you onto his lap and BOOM he kissed you right there & than
You returned the kiss dong worry.
"Been wanting to do that for so long you don't even understand princess.."
bro your legs turned jelly at that moment.
성훈 Sunghoon ♡
He hated the guts out of you at the beginning ibsr
Cuz he knows you are talented on the ice rank and you know he is as well
Don't worry, in reality he looks after you quite well I must say
"sunghoon listen! He was being a fat shit! I was here first so I should use the rank before him!" You huffed
"y/n~ you know you'll survive.. he's leaving in about 5.. how about I get you your favorite drink?"
He really knows how to win you over despite hating you for always winning in your division
He just always knows how to cheer you up
Besides that, you pretty much got dumped a month before Valentine's Day, and that obviously affected you
He could just tell because you lacked energy and enthusiasm, you just stopped talking and placed 3rd at your recent national championship that you cared so much about for MONTHS.
It was quite noticeable and when he heard what happened he knew he had to step in
So he asked you to be his palentine
You agreed so he took you to this little Korean market in town and you guys took tons of pictures together before ending your day back at the ice rank
"Put your skates on y/n~"
You were kinda scared what's happening but you listened and put them on, sunghoon tied the laces together for you so that was cute
Before you knew it the ice rank's lights turned on, shining the display of gold and pink and heart balloons in the middle of the rank
Gifts surrounding the decorations and a big teddy bear with a heart shaped plush in its arm on a platform
You sobbed. Never in your whole 19 years alive did you thought this would happen to YOU.
"thank you so much for this.." you full on sobbed in his embrace
"soo... do you consider yourself as my valentine now.." he smiled against your head
"Of course you are.. the best valentine ever.."
선우 Sunoo ♡
"y/n~ be my palentine!!!"
Yeah he is literally your second half
You both are like twins
Born only 2 days apart, friends since birth, inseparable, if one doesn't shows up to school, all the teachers and pupils will just ask the other half. That's how people know you both are two peas in a pot.
You stared at him blankly when he asked that bs of a question
"Who do you think I am?"
"Um my friend since birth da fuck..?"
"Alright fine than."
You agreed into his monstrous ideas because you know he will make crazy decisions that questions how he is still alive
So now you're standing inside a lift going up to the edge of a cliff, tied in safety gear.
He suggested you guys should do bungee jumping.
WHO TF DOES BUNGEE JUMPING FOR VALENTINE'S DAY
Well you two do so guilty as charge.
"Hold onto me okay? It will be less scary."
In a situation where either death takes both of you away or you're lucky enough to make it out alive he decided to say those stuff.
"God just take me away why did I say yes to this.."
You sighed as you realize you are finally geared up and ready to jump
"By the count of 3 you both would be released." Said the instructor.
3..2..1.. sunoo just dragged you down with him
High pitched Screaming filled your ears cuz you weren't prepared at all
" I LOVE U Y/M BE MY VALENTINE INSTESD AHHHH"
"SUNOO WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!!"
"BE MY VALENTINE!!"
At this point you both are clinging onto each other, his arms around your waist and yours around his neck
You both probably shit yourselves
After you guys got back down onto the ground Sunoo words finally replayed into your head
"I will be your valentine you stupid fool.." you smiled at him
"OH EM GEE YOU SAID YESSS!!"
Just grabbed your cheeks and kissed it
It was so funny yet so cute
にしむら りき Nishimura Riki ♡
He's been trying to bag you since freshman year of high school
By giving you his second gakuran botton down to you ever . single . year
It was so surprise that people started to pick up his habits and interest in you
I mean you are so pretty that girls and boys envy you
That also goes with Niki too, he was handsome that girls and boys get jealous of him.
But obviously you try not to show your interest in niki as much because you stick by your parents rules "focus on studies, not dating."
So you kindly turned in down multiple times and called off as "just friends"
Clearly the interactions between you both throughout the years WERENT "just friends"
Kissing on top of each others heads, linking arms, the lingering eyes and increased heart rates around each other that isn't "JUST FRIENDS"
Tbh he didn't ask to be "palentines"
He full on just asked you to be his and HIS FOREVER "valentine"
You obviously said yes no doubt at all
He took you to this cute arcade where he won loads of soft toys for you, took you to this flower shop and let you picked out the biggest bouquet of flowers, shared your first kiss together with a little bit of whipped cream on top of his lips.
"Niki rate our first date."
"I'll give it five big booms."
"BOOM-"
"Just shush."
Yeah you guys are definitely more than just friends.
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icewindandboringhorror · 6 months ago
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On average, what is the total MONTHLY amount that you spend on dining out*?
*(This doesn't only count going out to restaurants, but also stuff like picking up fast food to bring home, getting a coffee on the way to work, getting a premade sandwich from a grocery store deli during lunch, buying a quick snack from a convenience store or food cart whilst walking somewhere, ordering a pizza or any other food to be delivered to your home, etc.)
*(If you often dine out in groups/as a household: calculate and divide the costs so that you get a Per Person average. This is for YOU individually, NOT the total household/group costs)
(I'm sure polls similar to this have been made before (very common topic), I just haven't personally seen one that I can remember, so, I was curious to do my own! I was discussing this with a group of people today and it was very interesting to see how widely the number varied between individuals. :0c )
(Reblog for bigger sample size if you can, and feel free to explain your answer in tags if there's anything extra to add!)
#polls#tumblr polls#I'm mostly in the 0/1 - 25$ category. Maybe the rare month is a bit over $25 if there's something specific going on like birthday.#Which I'm NEVER eating in an actual restaurant (erm... covid... plus I just hate restaurant environments. i would rather pickup#the food and bring it home to a peaceful quiet environment that I control lol). But more typically like stopping by a grocery store deli#section or something. I don't have coffee that much. And I can't eat fast food much due to my health issues/diet restriction stuff#so if I'm out like coming back from an appointment and I start feeling really sick and weak. I know that a hamburger will just#blow up my system and cause nausea or something. So I try to pick the breadiest most#neutral looking turkey sandwich at the safeway deli to eat during the hour ride home or whatever lol#I actually kind of wish I could do stuff like get food more often vecause it would take the burden of cooking everything off of me#but.. alas... Money... and Health Things... T o T#I still wouldn't do it ALL the time but like... once a week instead of once a month or something.. or maybe turning into a coffee#person.. I do love drinks A LOT .. i am a drink person who will have 5 different drinks sipping on at all times#But i just have to make them all myself mostly lol#And I cant really have too much coffee since it will make me sick. so like.. teas and juice mostly#When I inevitably become a millionaire by never using social media never networking and only finishing one#sculpture every 5 months which I dont even post about or sell - then I shall... get more drinks..#I will somehow wean my body onto coffee and drink one a day solely for the ritual of it#Though even then... I would still probably just like.. buy the mateirals to make it at home or something#Like if you had a million dollars you could just buy a kitchen grade ice cream machine and other stuff to make your own milkshakes and#coffees and smoothies and bubble teas. Genuinely I think even if I were a BILLIONAIRE I would still look at playing likr $8 for a single#coffee and go .. uh.... I could just buy the equipment to make this and then save that money. PLUS. its in my house now so no need to#have to leave. I can make my own drinks in the comfort of home. .. ideal..#Like no matter how rich I ever got I would still have the lingering scroogey stinginess. like i am NOT paying for that. I will jus#make it myself. Especially if it was an Everyday thing. Anythign thats part of my routine I try to optimize and make as efficient as#possible... ANYWAY.. In an IDEAL world I would get treats. but probably not that much. as on a daily basis it would start to get#to me and I would just save up to buy kitchen machinery if I was rich lol
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shannonsketches · 11 months ago
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Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,
Anime:
GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)
VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!
Manga:
GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.
#dbtag#I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd#Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao#they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of#Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind'#and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life'#toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned'#and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit'#girl hWHAT#Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants#to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!!#Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies#They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted#He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok#He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be#because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that#Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt#+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow#realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??'#now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader.#and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat#you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play.#You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here#And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship#and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there#you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad#anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay#And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe
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hood-ex · 9 months ago
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hi! can you tell me how old dick was in battle for the cowl and then when he was batman to damian's robin?
Based on Tim and Jason's ages, Dick was prob mid-twenties. Like 25/26. He was probably the same age during both events since they happened near each other.
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zivaninja · 2 months ago
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Blue Bloods finale things/spoilers under the cut that I wanted to yell about:
• Jamko parents!!! Parents!! Oh how far they've come 😭
• I'm going to miss Eddie Janko so damn much, that's my girl.
•Jack and Erin getting married!! They finally got their happy ending. And the looks on their faces at dinner as they decided to keep it to themselves was just so 💜😭
• Danny's face when Henry tells him to find his person to come home to. He already knows.
• Danny Reagan! Asking Maria Baez! On a date! And her saying yes! He doesn't need to go look for his person because she's right there besides him. And the look on her face when she agreed!!
#blue bloods#jamko#jerin#daez#eddie janko#i'm going to miss so many of these characters so fucking much#crying over jamko on tumblr gone midnight I suddenly feel like i'm 18 again when I literally just turned 25 yday#I expected jamko parents and we knew that jack and erin were back together but getting 3/3 for my ships? blessed#jerin getting married again feels so right. their chemistry is unmatched#(the way jack looks at her. I get it.)#and then danny asking baez on a date took me out#the implication that he thought about what henry said for a few days and all his thinking led him back to maria because she's his girl.#and he just knew he had to take that leap.#(It's fine i'm going insane over here)#i am a bit miffed that we won't actually see anything beyond him asking her out and it was slightly open ended#but considering that we knew that danny didn't want to act on his feelings bc he didn't want to risk the pain of losing her/her getting hur#the fact that he asked her out was hugely significant#the fact that he specifically said it was because he had been thinking about what henry said to him is making me lose it#they obviously hang out outside work anyway but this is Different. you could tell by how almost nervous danny was 😭 but#she was right there with him. as she always is. they're partners in every sense.#and baez knows it too!!! the look on her face!! danny will tell her one day what it was that henry said and she'll Know.#god I am going to be thinking about them for the forseeable#3/3 on my ships and a good ending on a series finale is so rare for me#anyway i've been watching this show weekly since like 2014/15 and had watched it before that with my dad#so it's so strange that it's ending. it's one of the first shows that i've watched week in and out for donkeys years that is ending and it'#gonna be odd to not have that show in my watching list anymore#shut up g#(good god sorry about the tags I had to get that all out)#if anyone actually read any of that and still wants to come yell about these things please do :)
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orpheuslament · 1 year ago
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on the way back from the gym i saw two teenage girls on scooters in the middle of the road & they kept crossing each other & interlocking their feet & they looked like they were having so much fun i hope they have the best summer of their life
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opens-up-4-nobody · 11 months ago
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#had an interesting conversation with my sister the other day. odd i guess bc my sister is pretty smart#on paper shes smarter than me. or at least less dyslexic than me#but she didnt seem to kno what cancer is. i mean like how it works. i mean. cancer is a mistake. a confluence of unfortunate accidents#leading to unrestrained cellular growth. when it metastasizes. when it moves to other parts of the body. those same cells continue growing#if u have smooth muscle cancer and it moves to your kidney. you body is trying to grow more smooth muscle on your kidney#at least as i understand it. and she asked why it wants to kill you. it doesnt want anything. it just is. its not a thing of malicious#intent. its neutral. it grows. it takes up resources. it takes up space. and it grows and grows until the organ it grows on stops#functioning properly. like a parasite she said. but no. not like a parasite. it grows like an empty space. a mass of flesh. a constant#obstructive pressure. it grows like only a tumor can. i dunno. it didnt seem to connect with her that this thing didnt want to kill our mom#but it did anyway. and she felt weird about how long she lived after they took her off any support. but thats how cancer kills#it stops an organ from functioning and most of those r important so it only takes one. so her heart kept beating for 12 more hrs bc it was#meant to beat for 40 more years. but not much it could do without working kidneys and without working blood#but that's life. that's death. that's nature. its all nutral even if it feels horrible to the individual.#i dunno. i thought it was interesting. shes 25 and her mother had cancer for 10 years so id think shed kno more#we're at a weird phase now bc its been a week since she died and everything feels normal. we'll see what happens at the wake this week#its been interesting for sure bc she was sick for 10 years but my parents didnt prepare at all for her to die#so my dad is scrambling to put together the pieces shr left behind to make sure that all the bills r paid and whatnot. he had to guess her#computer password. she didnt tell us what she wanted us to have. she didnt tell us the importance of her jewelry and who it belonged to#before her. i dunno. we're seeing the outline of my mothers Pathology in what she left behind. both in the physical objects and in the#feelings she imparted. i dunno. its been weird#unrelated
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halogalopaghost · 1 year ago
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#IM SO STRESSED IM SO STRESSED#I feel like I'm not handling ANYTHING well rn#so many people have symptoms that are WAAAAAAY fucking worse and they're like. working full time jobs and being a parent and shit and#I'm like waaah oh no I have body aches and chronic fatigue looks like I'll have to be unemployed and never do anything ever 💀#how am I gonna live?? like. my parents are taking care of me and I'm so fucking glad but#SOMEDAY THEY WONT BE AROUND and that stresses me out so bad#I'm 25 years old and I NEED my mom every day if not physically then emotionally because I'm a little bitch baby that can't do anything for#herself. im having a hard time feeding myself I'm having a hard time keeping my living space clean#I'm not taking care of anything except the dogs sometimes and my lizard and she's not getting as much attention as she used to#I need a job and I need to be able to suck it up and DO THINGS but I feel like I'm not the person u was anymore#I was strong and I could push thru things and make myself do things and now I can't???? I just lay on the fucking couch!! and feel bad abtit#is it the tism. is it the ADHD. what about the chronic depression. how bout the fibromyalgia?#and the thing is that ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MILD#I don't have severe pain (yet).#I just can't handle it I don't WANT to handle it#so. shoutout to my mom I guess because if it wasn't for her I simply wouldn't be alive#I feel like I've never been happy!! why can't I just be content and be happy!!!!#I have no fucking reason to be unhappy!!!!!!
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sparklehoard · 5 months ago
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Aaah. So it's neverending huh.
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yanderespamton78 · 9 months ago
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the current state of the arg
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sorry guys the art isnt arting D:
(btw if youre confused on why i drew turnip like that i was referencing the picrew he did ages ago bc idk it looked fun to draw anddd i dont like taking reference off real life images)
#i felt like just a lillll bit of a creep relistening to voice messages over and over to find a good quote but. yk what. it was worth it#i totally didnt take reference from the really cool face i used in that animation because im still really proud of it#idk if emi or TD have a sona but if they do im not aware of it and i didnt feel like asking so i just drew both of them as blank characters#im too stressed to scheme lol#maybe#just maybe#i need to stop drinking tea because the caffiene makes me anxious#...#naaaaahhhh#i dont really know what to do with myself atm because i dont want to work on the animation unless turnon is ok out of pure spite#this morning i was absolutely radiating stress#i have a friend who shows up so we can walk together to school and she could tell smth was off lol#i literally could not hide it at all even if i wanted too#i kept pulling my hat over my face thats the main way you can tell that im stressed#not that it really matters that you know that bc none of you are ever gonna witness that but. fun fact abt me ig#ugh#if turnon dies i am gonna cry so hard <333#and i wont finish the animation <333333333#(at this point just trying anything to get turnon back)#im gonna make a word doc#i make word docs when im stressed /hj#quick question turnip : is there a way to get turnon out of the situation he is in or is he just gonna die and theres nothing we can do#about it /gen#because i have a sneaky suspicion that we cant actually do anything about this#i swear to god#LETS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!!#A DEFRAG MIGHT COME OUT TMR!!#its been 21 days and a defrag takes on average 20-25 days#ough#turnip and addon im gonna find where you live and i will burn your respective houses down
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thecedarchronicle · 7 months ago
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#VENT#VENT TAGS AHEAD !!#so the job is...awful.#i applied for 20-25 hours#they asked if i could do 30#and now theyre pushing me into 40.#i didn't realize that when i agreed to 30 that was NOT binding (i should have known because it wasn't in my job offer. but i am 19 and--#ive never had a job offer letter before. even tho this is just retail)#and i can't adjust my availability for 90 days.#and since i put full availability expecting 25 hours max#now i have FULL 24/7 AVAILABILITY ON FILE for three months at least#and i have no idea what to do because this means i cant commit to any classes coming up for college#but ive been job hubting for months and barely got anything#and if i lose the job i have to move back in with my dad which is almost worse#whats wirse is my leader/boss is so mean. im not saying this lightly#i dont want to get into it but im barely a week in and he's made disrespectful and pushy comments towards me#has basically told me to stay late (which theoretically i cluld say no; but im still on my three months of 'we will fire you if we want to'#and like i said. need the job.#so he told me to stay late knowing i cant really say no#he's given me a frankly absurd amount of work (instock and i get carts filled woth 2-3x their max capacity unorganized and dangerously--#overloaded) and then he pushes me and snaps at me to get it done in an absurdly short timeframe while im still in TRAINING#im afab and present femme as i haven't transitioned irl and he is so ragingly sexist#he often just refers to me and the other girl being trained as 'girl' or 'that girl#and to top it all off#i took this job over a second interview at a place i really liked#because i thought the hours at this olace would be more consistent#nope! full time! surprise!!#and now im kicking myself so fucking hard over it. i feel like i fucked up so hard#and my friend i moved here with has been home for two months and will be this month so im just. alone. and i don't really have anyone to#turn to. im just so very stressed and tired and lonely
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downsteepy · 7 months ago
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i am very grateful that im not someone that has to deal with daily seizures but it is evil when it takes like a week and a half's worth of business days to recover from a seizure
#if i had them everyday or every other day i would be so fucked 😭#id like to say they dont bother me per se but the entire week after is laying in bed after 11 pm and wondering if jts going to happen again#bc my head feels like its about to explode#and then do not get me started on the fear of getting in the shower within the first few days of one happening .#reasonably i understand that my seizures happen from 11pm to maybe 3 am on average .#but ill have a seizure and then have to hype myself up for like 2 hours just to take one 3 days later st like 2 pm#my seizures do not interfere with my day to day life in extreme ways but existing knowing that i have them during a certain time frame is#like. Hey man can you grow up#also it is really funny being told theyre probably hormonal or stress related and should 'probably stop' as i get into my mid 20s .#Well im turning 25 next month and evidently i still have seizure activity in me#also also heres a fun fact: my epilepsy does not have an actual named diagnosis they just said i certainly have a Form of it ❤️#they dont know what causes them and i have no real warning signs (bc a headache =/= potential seizure)#they dont bother me but i do have to live with the knowledge that i could have one any day now and wake up to my mom asking me questions#hope everyone can tell i have a lot of feelings about my epilepsy despite not talking about it like ever ❤️#the only thing that really bothers me is the no warning signs. ive been perfectly fine and had them. ive had massive migraines when i was#unmedicated and didnt have one. very bizarre#and ofc all my brain scans come back normal all the time so they dgaf Lol
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